October 22, 2009
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Let your love be strong
A prelude to a man drunk on thoughts at 2 A.M.
Sometimes it feels like the mind is an underground hot air balloon, and at night we finally have the time to get it out and fly above the city. Eventually the city below is a few specks of light, the sky above a host of shining stars. Drifting in the silent darkness between the two, we look back and forth in our thoughts between humanity and the heavens . . .
Everyone speaks a language which only they can understand; a romance is finding someone else who speaks the exact same language.
How sad it is to feel as though you speak a language that no one else speaks.
Every now and again, it is a good thing to be sad.
Sooner or later you realize, this is the body I’m stuck with. Somedays it feels surprising we didn’t wake up with a whole new one.
Sometimes it does feel like you would rather kill yourself than not be valued by those you really care about.
Life is made up of the people you are around. You pursue certain relationships, you pursue a certain life. You’ll look back, and the conversations you had with those people will be the life that you lived.
Is anyone really there for your life? Like a person who watches a sleeping body, our friends no more know our lives than creatures from other universes know about the earth. It is a lost planet, hidden silently in the shadows of the milky way, one of the hundreds of billions of galaxies. It is a very hard thing to know another person.
Eternity has nothing to do with time; it has everything to do with depth of life.
Then it comes time to land the hot air balloon, for the new day starts quite early. But it is always fun to be around people the next day and think, ‘And they have no idea that just last night I was taking a midnight ride in a hot air balloon . . .’
Comments (9)
I love what you write. I feel like I am closer to reality when reading thoughts of someone that isn’t busy trying to hide from the default setting of who we really are. The depth of who we are can cause immense fear when we look in and just feel. Perhaps we are “seeing” our own soul in that moment.
For me personally, the only person I feel like I know and knows me is Jesus. I love Him and I feel so deeply loved by Him. I understand the internal workings of people that have no concept of that…and wish they knew what was made for the inner places, the something more than an intellectual and/or emotional distraction from timeless meaning.
I have meaning.
Beautifully written…thanks! It makes me think of how we put our masks on each day as we enter our worlds, and most people only see this mask, they think that is who we are. To take off the mask to a person means taking a big risk, because we become vulnerable to this person we care about, that they may “move away.” Is it still worth the risk?
oustanding entry my friend. I agree with the other two. Thanks for stopping by. look foreward to reading future entries. Take Care.
That was a great post. I agree with ed408. The mask is a dangers thing to take off.
Thank you.
@ed408 -
That basically is the motivation behind ‘small talk’, I think. We don’t open up to people right away because we don’t trust them yet. But once two people learn to trust each other, a good friendship ensues.
Unless, like you say, they move away. And that is a big problem; I’ve had someone move away, and that hurts a lot. But it seems like we are forced into taking the risk by our fear of lonelines. Though we do value not being hurt, so it’s true some people still opt to bottle themselves up. It can be tempting to do so sometimes. It certainly is terrifying to be vulnerable with someone.
At some point, I’m going to discover an inspirational book filled with all these thoughts of yours. Or if not, they nonetheless deserve to be in one.
These are spectacular sayings!!! 0.0 Do you mind if I steal a few? Mind if I quote you?
I can’t even pick a favorite. xD They’re all good. (Extremely belated reply, I know. Do forgive me.)
haha yes i am always cold
@Yume_Shii -
I am so sorry for being MIA for a little while (school has been wonderful to me lately) . . .
But I suppose, so long as you think your response was also belated, that we shall call it even.
Yeah actually my site comes with a reverse-copyright policy which encourages people to take, and even claim as their own, as much material as they want. So do feel free.